Lack Of Sleep

I have a confession to make, I love sleep.  Then again who doesn't?  Vampires I guess, lol, besides vampires I think that everyone loves sleep.  So when I do not get enough sleep I get very upset.  Last night/early this morning my sweet dreams were disturbed by this...

This is my cat Manderz.  As you can see she is very cute, but can be very annoying when she wants to be, lol.  My bed is smaller than a twin bed so I barely fit on it without falling off, add Manderz and we have a problem.  But if I do not let her in my room she sits outside my door and bangs on it with her paw, so I let her in to try and get some sleep.  Well it wasn't happening last night.  So I am tired, but surprisingly not that upset.  I don't usually function very well on 5 hours of sleep but I seem to be doing pretty good today.  Happy Sunday everyone, enjoy it before those Monday Morning Blues!



Thursday's Thoughts

I have decided to try something new called Thursday's Thoughts.  Every Thursday I will talk about what I have been thinking about each week.  This week's Thursday's Thoughts deal with adventure.  I have never been on an adventure in my life.  I have never been out of the country and the farthest away from home I have ever been is Washington D.C.  My life has been pretty boring up until now, but I hope to change that.  I want to travel the world and see new places and experience new things.  I want to meet new people with exciting stories to tell.  Now that I am older, I think about leaving home quite often and going on an adventure.  Sometimes I feel like Bilbo (any Lord of the Rings fans out there, lol) and want to go on an adventure so badly without thinking about what could happen.  But hopefully, like Bilbo, I will learn from my adventures and have amazing stories to tell when they are complete.  (Yes I am comparing myself to a Hobbit, and yes I am a nerd, lol).  My point is, what is life with out adventure? What is life without excitement?  It's boring, lol.  And I am tired of my life being boring, so my thoughts for today are, how do I find excitement and adventure in life?   Will I have important stories to tell in the future?  Would someone be interested in reading a book about my life? 



La La Means I Love You

What is love?  We can't see it or touch it, but we definitely feel it.  And that is what makes it real.  Love is a beautiful thing.  Who am I to tell someone who to love?  That answer is simple: I am in no position to tell anyone who to love.  Love is not something that we can control, it is a force that is bigger than anything on this Earth. Love defies logic, common sense, practicality, but not gravity because when we fall in love we fall hard.  I am just so happy to have people in my life who I love and who love me in return.  We don't have to think about it we just love each other, faults and all; and that is what love truly is.  Loving someone no matter what.  I am blessed to have a family that I love unconditionally and who love me unconditionally.  Love comes in all shapes, sizes, and forms and my only hope is that everyone out there has at least one person in their life that loves them unconditionally.  Good night everyone and if you love someone tell them, it's always nice to hear that someone loves you. 



What I Am Really Loving Right Now...

I am constantly falling in love.  I fall in love with movies, music, recipes, videos, poems, food, drinks, animals, candy, feelings, and clothing all the time.  Right now, I am really loving The Civil Wars.  I am sure that I am probably late in finding this duo, but better late than never right :)  I have been listening to their album Barton Hollow on repeat for about two weeks now.  Their music is just so soothing, in a country blues type of way.  I am in love with their sound, their image, and most importantly their talent. 

This is my favorite song of theirs!

Other than extremely beautiful music, I have fallen in love with temperatures in the 60's in my area.  Goodbye Summer and hello Autumn!  Bring on the sweaters, boots, dark wash jeans, scarves, and pumpkin flavored everything :)  So, if you are really loving something right now, tell me about it in the comments!   

New Beginnings and New Fears

Happy Sunday everyone.  Tomorrow will be the last day of my first week of school and it has been a little rough on me.  I have been out of schools for 10 months and going back is taking a lot out of me.  First off I am taking way more notes than I ever took in the past, I guess you could say that is a good things because it means I am serious about school :)  But even with all of the stress I could not be happier about continuing my education.  It is something that is very important to me and something that I want to succeed in.  I am hoping that going back to school will be the start of a new beginning for me, because Lord knows I need one.  Last year was pretty tough on me emotionally and so was the first half of this year, but I am determined to make a change in my life for the better.  Now, along with new beginnings come new fears, of course.  Will I be good enough?  Am I smart enough?  Will I be able to handle the pressure?  Will I disappoint those who believe in me?  Those are all questions to which I have no answers.  I do not know if I will be good enough, but I am going to try my hardest.  I don't know if I am smart enough, but I'm going to study and take as many notes as possible and ask for help when I need it.  I am not sure if I will be able to handle the pressure, but I am going to try and manage my time and assignments so that I am not trying to complete 5 things at one time.  Finally, I have no idea if I will disappoint those who believe in me, then again if they really believe in me than there is no way to disappoint them.  What I am trying to say is that I have fears, who doesn't?  But I hope that the way I overcome those fears defines me as a person, I hope that I can inspire myself and maybe along the way inspire others.  So, here is to new beginnings and the new fears that come along with them! 

Back To School

Back to school I go!  Yes, that's right Tuesday is my first day back in school.  I have been out of school for almost a year and I have to say that I do miss it.  I had a great summer, but now it is time for me to get down to business :)  I am working toward my Bachelor's degree in Early Childhood Education and I am studying online with Ashford University.  I am excited to just hurry up and get my degree already, but I will wait patiently, lol.  In other news things in my personal life are not too shabby either.  I always feel like things go so much smoother in life when you have someone to talk to who supports you.  Well I have a few people like that in my life right now and I couldn't be happier to have them along for this ride with me.  I am learning that life has it's own plan and sometimes you just have to let it take its course and hang in there.  Tomorrow is the start of a new week and I intend to make it count.  I want to keep my GPA up, I want to eat better, I want to exercise more, and I want to enjoy life more.  So here is to new beginnings and a new life starting tomorrow!

Land Of Confusion

Hello everyone!  I hope you all had a great weekend, I did.  So I am almost officially a student again, however I think that we are all students until the day we die because we are learning and experiencing new things everyday, but I will save that for another post ;)  I decided to go back to school online because I really think that having my Bachelor's degree will open up more doors for me career wise.  I am excited to get back into the routine of writing papers, studying for exams, and researching.  When I was growing up I wasn't a fan of school, I didn't hate it but I didn't love it either.  Now that I am older I really appreciate the fact that I am able to go to school and learn all that I can.  So here is to 2 more years of higher education!  I am also excited to be voting in the coming election.  I was not old enough to vote in the last presidential election so this is a first for me.  It is so important that young people get out there and vote so that our voices can be heard.  Elections determine our future and I really don't like when people complain about elected officials but didn't even take the time to go out and vote.  It doesn't matter who you vote for as long and you believe in that person and that they can make a difference in this world.  I titled this post Land of Confusion because even though it seems like I finally have it all together I am once again still confused.  I guess that I will always be confused about something in my life and for once I am ok with that.  I have learned that things are not going to be easy and the best things are worth fighting for.  So I am going to fight for the future that I want for myself and hopefully I will come out victorious.  You have to fight for what you believe in and I believe in myself, so to all of you out there who do not think that you are worth fighting for, you're wrong.  Fight for what you believe in and you will win, end of story. 

Weekend Warrior

It is finally Friday and I could not be more thrilled!  My weekend will consist of shopping for yummy, healthy food.  I love going food shopping.  The supermarket is seriously my favorite store in existence.  I love looking at all the produce and picking my fruits and veggies.  The smell of fresh peaches, strawberries, and oranges make me so happy, lol.  I love food if you couldn't already tell, but more importantly I love healthy food.  I don't always eat healthy but I want to change that, I want to change my entire diet.  When I eat healthy foods I feel good, I have energy, bright eyes, and a better complexion.  When I eat junk I feel like junk, and it shows.  So I am determined to change my diet and in turn change my lifestyle.  Losing weight will just be the tip of the ice berg for me because I don't only want to loose weight I want to be healthier and lead a healthier lifestyle.  I hope that everyone has a great weekend!  Go out and do something fun!